Friday, October 31, 2008

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Our house sold. Now we just have to find a place to live.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


He usually loves walks, but for some reason he wasn't too thrilled this morning. Maybe because he couldn't move.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Bixby Pumpkin Patch

We went to Bixby Pumpkin today and what a wonderful place. If you haven't got your pumpkins yet I recommend going to Bixby. They had a petting zoo, pony rides, camel rides, tons and tons of pumpkins, and tons of fall paraphernalia . It was a wonderful place for kids. Ben really enjoyed watching all the kids.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

8 Months...

and he speaks. Benjamin said Dada for the first time Thursday, waited a few days and said it five or six times Saturday.
Likes: Baths, taking his precious time while eating his bottle, rushing through each scrumptious bite of baby food, his exersaucer, walks, car rides, all animals, elmo, his mobile (still), moving across the floor (when no one is looking, I am still not for sure if he is army crawling or rolling across the room. If I walk into the room he stops and usually cries for me to get him.), clapping, jumper, an his best friend Dayton.
Dislikes: dirty diapers, big people applesauce, slow feeder's (Pick up the pace Dada!), being over stimulated, bright rooms while napping, being ignored, being woken up (HUGE No, No), and teething biscuits (he always ends up crying).

Thursday, October 09, 2008


I went to the doctor yesterday and everything is fine. The lump is a fat globular and has been there my whole life. There use to be more breast tissue there, but gravity, pregnancy and breast feeding has changed that and now I can feel the lump. Thank you for all the prayers, it really means a lot to us.

Saturday, October 04, 2008


We had an realtor come over on Friday. A woman that John use to work with who now works as a realtor for McGraw offered to sell our house cutting her commission to 2%. We immediately took her up on her generous offer. We have found a house in Prattwood that we really want and are hoping everything falls into place time wise and money wise.

We went to the fair on Friday too. Ben seemed to really enjoy it. I got free entrance tickets from my teacher, thank you Dr. Peabody. We got to use all our money on fair food. Mmmmm DELICIOUS! Has anyone tried an Indian Taco? It is probably now my favorite. I also tried fried pickles. Not my favorite, but interesting. Ben liked the petting zoo. I do believe he will be an animal lover.

I got a call from my doctor on Thursday. After going over the radiologist report he decided he would refer me to a breast surgeon. I have a consult on Wednesday. I try not to think about the 'what ifs'. Luckily, I have a lot to keep me busy and distract me.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

On September 17

A few days before Hayley's wedding I found a lump in my breast. My first thought was that it was a blocked milk duct. When I woke up the next morning with the lump still there with no pain, I knew it wasn't a blocked milk duct (Milk Dud as Jenny calls them). I called the doctor, they couldn't get me in until Monday. I go and see Dr Parham, one of my all time favorite doctors. He could definitely feel a lump. I was right, it was not a blocked milk duct. He said he wasn't too concerned but would like me to go and get an ultrasound. Good. I would like that peace of mind. I go to schedule an appointment, they could get me in the following Monday. I guess I don't have much say so on when, and hope the wait doesn't give me ulcers. So, the following Monday I go to have an ultrasound. During the ultrasound I try desperately to "read" the ultrasound with no prevail. She stops, says she wants to go and show the Radiologist to see if he would also like a Mammogram. She is gone for maybe two minutes. She's found something that looks suspicious that must be why she had to go and consult with the Radiologist. I can feel the tears building in my eyes. She comes back in and says, "No, he doesn't want a mammogram. And he would also like me to tell you, he doesn't really see anything." Ahhhh, a sigh of relief, until I get to my car. Doesn't see anything? Anything at all? Nothing suspicious? There is something there I can feel it, John can feel it, Dr Parham can feel it, the tech can feel it. Now I wait. The rest of Monday passes, Tuesday passes, Wednesday morning passes, afternoon is passing, I decide to call the doctor. I then wait for a call back. 4:30 I get a call back from the nurse. "Well, the reports says he didn't really see anything." Yeah, I know I got that part. "It does say the fibers are showing...I will have Dr Parham go over that after he signs off on the report. More than likely he will set you up with a breast surgeon. Dr Parham will be in tomorrow." Thanks Jan. I now feel I know less.
I do know I am scared. Every abnormality, I have felt tired lately, my hormones seem out of wack, is this a sign? Its now Thursday 11:00 AM, and I still wait for that promised phone call more than likely to be set up for another appointment to yet wait some more.
Keep me in your prayers.