Thursday, June 23, 2011

The last 5 years

Happy Birthday to ME!
Below is my blog from four years ago, right before I turned 26, in CAPS LOCK is my blog from three years ago when I turned 27, in italics is for my 28th birthday, 29th is in bold and the big 3-0 is back to "normal" font.


I see you 26
YOU ARE ALREADY HERE 27?
28, 29, 30...does it really matter?
29? I am 29 years old, when did that happen?
I've been waiting for you thirty, the promises of what those wiser and older than me have told me, thirties is when life really gets sweet.


I am turning 26 this Sunday. I have never really thought about age before or getting older, until this year.
I TURNED 27 TODAY. I HAVE REVERTED BACK TO NOT THINKING ABOUT AGE ANYMORE, THERE IS JUST NOT ENOUGH TIME.
I still do not think about how old I am, now I think about how old my son is.
This is my last year to be twenty, how weird is that?
I see myself on a time line now, I need have another baby by this age, perhaps another by this age, eetc.

A few things I have noticed:

I wear clothes for comfort now.
I WEAR CLOTHES JUST TO COVER MY BARE SKIN.
I wear Mom clothes. Big underwear (I can't even call them panties).
I don't think I have one piece of clothing without some type of stain from Ben on it.
Classy, I strive to look classy now. Well, comfortable classy.

Elastic and I have become quite close.
ELASTIC HAS NOW BECOME EMBEDDED INTO MY SKIN.
I wear SPANX, so the elastic doesn't become embedded in my skin.
I wear elastic to work out in now, almost down to my wedding weight.
I still wear elastic to work out in and am now under my wedding weight.

Once upon a time high heel shoes didn't hurt my feet.
ONCE UPON A TIME I WORE SHOES EVERYDAY...THAT MATCHED.
My feet have grown a size and a half, or I have realized, I am not really a 7.5.
I love high heel shoes, but now I am paranoid about bunions and foot deformities, I think I will stick to flip flops and tennis shoes.
I occasionally wear high heal shoes and try to worry less about foot deformities and bunions. (Although in nursing school I have seen some nasty feet, perhaps I should steer clear of high heals)

I worry about my health and heart disease.
I WORRY ABOUT MY SON AND HAVE LITTLE TIME TO WORRY ABOUT MYSELF.
I am striving to live a healthy life so I can enjoy my grandchildren.
I am living a healthy life.
While living a healthy life I was diagnosed with connective tissue disease a potentially life altering disease. I've now learned worrying doesn't change a thing.

I read the contents in my food, ecpecially the fiber section.
I STILL READ THE CONTENTS OF MY FOOD AND MUST GET FIBER DAILY.
Only water soluble fiber
Lots of fruits and vegetables
This year I learned too much fiber can constipate toddlers. Sorry Ben.

I take much more time and money on my skin.
I USE BABY SOAP AND BABY LOTION ON MY FACE.
I love clinique, my skin has never looked better
Still loving clinique.
I do love clinique, I think now is the time to switch to anti-aging.

I tan much less and wear sunscreen and sometimes sunblock.
I HAVE NO TIME TO TAN.
I always wear sunscreen.
I burned on Memorial Day and was convinved I had just given myself skin cancer.
I am so tan right now. We went to Destin and I was on the beach (with 30-50 sunscreen on) everyday.

Bars seem really loud.
ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE I HAVE GONE TO A BAR AND I DO NOT SEE GOING IN THE NEAR FUTURE OR EVEN THE DESIRE TO GO.
I go to Church now.
I enjoy going to Church and get more out if it than any bar.
Family, Church and school, thats all I have time for and all I want to make time for.


I get in my pajamas much earlier now.
I NEVER GET OUT OF MY PAJAMAS.
I get out of my PJ's during Ben's first nap.
I get out of my PJ's right when I get up, throw on my workout cloths and go for a jog.
I buy cute pajamams now, no more John's t-shirts and boxers.

I haven't seen 2 AM, in probably a year...or 1 AM at that.
2PM, 2AM ALL THE SAME.
I go to bed at 11 PM, and rarely wake up before 8 AM.
11 PM? Who stays up till 11? That is just crazy talk!
John's new hours are really throwing me off.

I look forward to the news, and must watch the weather.
I GET TO WATCH THE NEWS SOMETIMES.
I watch the news, only when John is in town.
I watch the 5:00, 6:00, and 10:00 news, and occasionally the 9:00 news on FOX.
My husband is now the director of channel 6 news. I watch and beam with pride.

I have gotten much curvier, and not in a bad way.
EVEN CURVIER, BUT HAVE PASSED THE "NOT IN A BAD WAY".
John thinks my body is perfect, and that is all that matters.
I'm back to curvy in a good way and John still thinks my body is perfect.
John can't keep his hands off me, I guess I'm like a fine wine, better with age.

My family has become my friends.
I LOVE MY FAMILY.
I still love my family.
Love my family and am making new friends.
My family is like friends and my friends like family.

I am pretty now and not cute.
JOHN IS LUCKY TO SEE ME PRETTY ONCE A WEEK.
I am a beautiful Mother.
I am a beautiful wife and mother.
Apparently I was quite conceited at 29! I strive to look good for John.

I think about my future more, and how to better myself for the future.
I STILL THINK ABOUT THE FUTURE AND HOW TO BETTER MY FAMILY.
I now plan for the future.
I will be a nurse in the near future.
I graduate in December.

Life is good. Bring on 26.
MY LIFE IS BLESSED. HOW OLD AM I AGAIN?
What a great year, perhaps another baby at 28...maybe 29.
Maybe another baby by 30?
Hopefully another baby by 31.