Friday, December 07, 2012

Go back and read "that" blog...

      September 2012.

      One of John and I's pet peeves about facebook is when couples write on each other's walls.  Example:  Happy Anniversary! I love you more today than the day I married you etc.  I wonder if they actually say it to one another in person or just put it on each others wall.  So, instead of doing it on facebook I am going to do it on my blog...that makes it OK. : ) 
      I know and remember how hard it can be on a marriage when you have a baby.  So much of your time is spent with the baby your spouse can feel neglected, your marriage can feel neglected.  Whenever John feels like he is on the back burner I want him to read this blog.

Dear John,

I'm not for sure if my enormous belly gave it away or not, but we are getting ready to have two babies.  Two.  And they are girls.  Two girls. Now take a big deep breath in. : )  I will keep reminding you, if you continue to remind me.  I'm trying to figure out a good way to start in confessing my love for you.  I'm sure it will be awkward, similar to our entire relationship ie: first date, proposal, etc. but awkward it what we are good at.  That was one of the reasons I first fell in love with you.  You never said the "right" thing, you said the honest thing.  Perfect timing was non existent.  We never had the story book romance, which is what I always thought I wanted, but it turns out that, that is just a story.  You  didn't win me over with romantic dinners, flowers, poems or gifts.  (Obviously not gifts.  Remember our second Christmas?  A razor, a cook book and acne cream.  I'm suprised we still got married after that Christmas.)  You won me over with your love for me, your honesty, your simpleness, your devotion, the father I knew you would be, your stability, the way you look at me, the way you treat me and your legs.  (I love your legs, if I could bend over right now without tipping over I would totally squueze your calves.)  So those are the things that made me fall for you, now on to the things that continue to make me fall deeper.  All of the above plus, the father your are, the incredible head of househould you have become, your confidence, the way you comfort me, the Christian man you have become, the incredible provider you are and the humor you bring to our relationship. (You just walked into the room and showed me that you shaved your armpits on "accident".  Its never a dull moment around here.)  Our lives have never been perfect.  Never even close.  We have faced one challenge after another.  All of our challenges we have gone through have made for incredible memories (and funny stories, example our first trip to Branson.) I wouldn't change a challenge. There is no one I would rather go through this imperfect challenging life with and if you asked me to marry you again I would say yes, right after I told you I had the worse diarrhea of my life...again, perfect timing.

 I still love you more than mayonaise.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Ben's First Day of School!

Ben had an incredible first day of school. I made his favorite breakfast, pancakes. John is on vacation so we all three got to eat breakfast together. John and I both got to take him to school too. Ben was very excited and had no reservations of walking right in to his classroom. No tears at all (except for John : ) ) When we picked him up he was all smiles. His little eyes looked exhausted though. I hope every day is this easy!

Ready for school

Outside of his school

Walking to the gym for rise and shine!

Sunday, August 05, 2012


-We were both laying on my bed looking at my growing belly and my stomach growled.  Ben's eyes got huge, "the babies just tooted!"

-While at the doctors office looking at a book we come across a cow with utters.  With his head cocked to the side, "look at all those penis' on that cow."

-Trying to teach a social child about strangers can be quite challenging. Me, " Ben we do not talk to adults if we do not know their name, they are called a stranger." Ben, "If I can't talk to them how can I ask them their name?" Me, "So, if someone comes to your school to pick you up and you do not know them do you get in their car?"  Ben, "No, I would ask their name first."  Me, "Lets start again."

-"Mom, you know the babie will have baginas like you."

-"Ben are you going to take care of your little sisters?"  "Yes, I am going to protect them and spank them"  Nope no spanking.

During the 110 degree weather a few clouds appeared, "Dad it looks like its going to snow."

"Mom you going to poop the babies out?"

Sunday, January 08, 2012

What should you do if you can't keep up with one blog? I'll tell you, start another. That makes sense, right? John and I have been trying to have another child for about a year now and tomorrow we go to an infertility specialist. For some reason it is weighing heavy on my heart to blog about our adventure to conceive. My plan is to keep up with both blogs, this one about our everyday lives and the other about infertility. If you would like to follow us on that adventure the blog is

Pinning Pictures

I wish I could think of words to write about graduation, but for some reason I can't. The evening was surreal. The majority of the night I was fighting back tears. Some of excitement and some of fear. Its real now.